My heart is broken; I\'m having a harder time then I ever imagined I would! Nanno you were the best grandpa ever. I\'m so sad, broken and empty and filled with so much emotion today. Nanno, you left this world to a much better place last night.
I am left with so many memories but left with so much guilt too; because I didn\'t come visit you more.
How do I let go of the guilt and anger towards myself? I know that no matter what you loved me and my babies whether you seen us or not. But my heart breaks and I find myself crying so much today.
When I did come visit, you always tried to make me eat something or drink something, if I wasn\'t sitting down you made me sit down and take off my coat. You were so caring and would do anything for anyone who came into your life. You were such a hard working man and were always out in the fields or barn and never taking a break to just relax.
Growing up your house was my second home and it was always fun times, raiding your cupboards for junk food, running to the barn to find the kittens hiding, going to feed the bunnies and chickens with you, picking strawberries and apples and raspberries and whatever else we could find growing, riding on the back of your truck from the fields back to your house, feeding the cows in the field, going to church with you and just sitting watching tv with you before bed time. Those memories and way more I will hang onto forever. You were the only one that could speak Italian to me and I would understand it, you always tried to teach me to speak it but I had no interest but you still always tried. Every time I brought a man around you, he would get lectured and you would make sure he had a job and he was good to me. You loved me so much and wanted nothing but the best for me and my kids.
Right now more then anything, my heart is breaking for my grandma, Nana. I can\'t even begin to imagine the pain she is feeling. You guys were sole mates and were inseparable. Everything she did was for you Nanno and her life isn\'t going to be the same without you. While on the phone with Mom today Nana was there and mom said "nana is here with me and she can hear you". I almost broke down and held my tears in; every time nana knew I was on the phone she was always saying hi to me and talking and this time she was quiet and didn\'t even talk. I hung up the phone and bawled my eyes out. Nana I\'m so sorry for your loss of your sole mate. I love you and I will make sure to visit lots more, but it won\'t be the same without Nanno there.
Life won\'t ever be the same for anyone without Nanno here. He was the strongest man I\'ve ever known and loved everyone.
Nanno one thing I\'m so thankful for is that I named my son after you, "Noah Domenic"
Rest In Paradise Nanno. I wish RIP meant Return If Possible. Love you forever. I\'m going to try my hardest to be strong for Nana and Mom at your funeral❤️❤️😢😢
Domenic "Nanno" Macri
June 12, 1925 - March 3, 2017💔
